I know that we all like to think and act like we have everything all figured out, but I'm going to stop the facade for a moment. I just spent 20 minutes answering a post that got deleted. The post was by an atheist who is struggling with depression and with a lot of big issues about life and the universe and such. I wanted to help that person, but now I have no way of knowing who it is now. Depression is an illness that has touched my life in many ways, none of them good. Since we have chosen the intellectually honest path, we have no religious teaching to hide under when things really start to suck. I don't have many people that I can talk to honestly about what I think in my life, and posting a question on here isn't exactly the best way to get help. Having doubts and fears is completely normal. Just because we have questions about how all this came to be and how it will be in the future doesn't mean that we are being weak or intellectually dishonest. I know that you will be loathe to admit, just as I am now, but sometimes I want SO badly for it all to be real so that I don't have to feel so lost. I don't know if you will accept my opinion or if I will be scorned, but I feel like it is extremely important for us to be able to have someone to talk to about these types of questions without judgement. I am going to put my email up here, and if any of you, atheist or not, need to talk about anything at all, whether it has to do with religion or if you are sad about the Colts getting their butts kicked, please email me. There is no shame in acknowledging that you are vulnerable. At the worst, I can be just another faceless person on the internet, but at the best I could friend, or even just a wall to bounce ideas off of. Or someone to laugh at and make fun of. the_perkinator626@yahoo.com P.S. please send me spam, because I don't have enough already. Actually Skully, clinical depression is sometimes caused by a chemical imbalance in the brain. That is what anti-depressants aim to fix. As far as spam mail goes, I was trying to go for the reverse psychology effect at the end there. And yeah, that is my actual email address. 454. That is how many new emails I have. Damnit. Now its about 1000